Haha, hormones have made me suuuper baby crazy! I think I was destined to be a mother, I've had maternal instincts for a long time now, even well before HRT. My parents fostered when I was growing up, so the first 17 years of my life we always had babies around. I used to help take care of them and got an odd lil guilty thrill from pushing them around in their carriages and strollers through the mall. I've been glad to have some time off not having to take care of them but now I find I miss it. I've been considering becoming a preschool teacher for a while to get my fix. I think within the next few years I'll have a child of my own, or maybe even start fostering. To me, sure it's a bummer I can't get preggers but hey, adoption is always an option. But yeah, hormones have certainly intensified the maternal instincts I already had. I wander through baby-sections in stores and get all teary-eyed or give the strollers a lil push. Or I'll look at cribs and sigh. Things like that... I see other people's kids around and get that protective feeling if it looks like they might be in danger, or watch them if they run off or look like they might get into something. And I'm always smiley and friendly with them but I've noticed I've had to back off a bit, because A) I'm not their mother, and B) sometimes it hurts... :/ I just get too emotional. Perfect example is when my boyfriend and I visited his family for Thanksgiving. He has a 6 year old niece, and she and I instantly bonded. To her, I was like the big sister she always wanted and for me, she was like the little sister and daughter I've wanted all rolled into one. We left a week later, but before we did, she wanted a picture of me and her to put in her locket. I cried pretty hard when we drove off... I'm tearing up thinking about it. I'm definitely going to have at least one child of my own one day.
