You will, find that, ths is what I call the see saw effect.
For variouse reasons, I and others have gone through stages of, Purging. It relates to the on and off of, wearing, for example.
We make purchases, and we enjoy them for at time. Then somthing happens that stops the enjoyment. variouse things and it varies amongst us, but somthing does happen.
Things like,
Got called a name, that I put down to feelng better about myself, this made me feel bad, so clothes make me un-happy not happy.
Or, I was looking forwards to recieving somthing and I ripped it before I even got it on, I hated that exsperience, and It made me not enjoy wearing anything ells because I wanted to wear that.
Or Broke a heel on an exspensive shoes.
Oh, hear was the most confusing one, I had finished landscaping the garden with my dad and I was proud about what I had acomplished, I didnt need clothes to be happy.
I think, that when we recieve enjoyment in an area outside of trans related things, we feel less need to exspress those aspects. And that If exspresing our Trans related aspects is seen to bring us sadness, we have less desire to do them. And regardless of why or what reason, We stop exspressing and sometimes purge our (tools of exspression) purchases on a beliefe we no longer need it.
But the desires can come back, and for the most part with greater ntensity and for longer periods.
