Thank you everyone for your kind words. They really have helped lift my spirits.
I've said this to others and in other places, but not sure if I've done it here yet. I have let my father go. In my mind he is a writhing octopus that I've put in a jar on a shelf, where he will stay until he comes to me and apologizes. He will have nothing to do with my future child, my wife, my family until that time. I am done.
As for my mother, I'm still hoping. She's panicking and grasping at straws, thinking about how am I supposed to pay child support when my wife leaves me. /facepalm... Thankfully I'm a grownup and have figured out how to live my life without her support for the past 7 years, I'm sure I can keep doing it. She says it's all because she cares for me greatly, as all parents do. But I've basically told her now that I'm walking this path and I want her to come with me, but it's time to crap or get off the pot. In nicer words...sort of... I've done nothing but try and educate her and it's getting tiresome.
My sister, lost cause, throw her in the same boat as my dad. Except she's not even worthy of being an octopus on the shelf, she's just being relegated to the compost heap.
My brother, goddess bless him. I'm thankful to have one family member who has approached this rationally and calmly at least. We'll be fine.
And so as the sand through the hourglass.... Me and my wife are good. I am so much more in touch with my emotions and my actions now than ever before. It has really helped me to open up to her, to connect with her, and to fully understand the consequences of my actions and words. I have apologized more to her in the past month than in my entire life I think, lol.
