feeling terrible

[Christy82]

Well, l have no friends, no job, can't get anyone to watch my son so I can go register for tech. college or for job search.  I have no one to talk to. Can barely afford hrt, and only have most of my family won't even give me the time of day.  I don't even know why I bother to even get up in the morning, I should just stay there all day and night.  Only my mom talks to me and she still misgenders me and calls me by a name I no longer want to be called.  And she gives me the old guilt trip routine every chance she gets(which she get a lot of chances because she visits for weeks at a time).  I don't even know why I am even trying to go through with everything.  Sorry to post my complaints.  Feel free to remove it if its not appropriate.

[stephaniec]

well, one important thing you do have is  a child to be there for. I'm 63 years old , I have absolutely no one. I always wanted children , but never found anyone. I'd say your incredibly lucky to have a child to take care of

[Ms Grace]

I'm sorry that things seem particularly crappy at the moment. I would hope though that your son is a reason to get up in the morning. If your mother is visiting so frequently maybe she can look after him so you can get registered? And maybe set some ground rules - I don't know if you are presenting as your identified gender but tell her you'll refuse to respond if she uses the wrong name/gender see how that goes? Good luck!

[suzifrommd]

Hugs, Christie. You're climbing a long hill. It will take a lot of strength.

You have the strength. I know you do. We're here to help in whatever way we can.

One thing that helped me was to join a LGBT friendly church. There are churches, even in your area, that accept and welcome LGBT people and will help you connect to a community. I don't know what your religion is. I'm not sure about God and never connected much to religion and even I found a church that I totally love. I know you're in a geographic area that tends to be Southern Baptist, but if you look carefully you would be surprised what's available.

Another thing I'd suggest is to be screened for depression. Often the feeling like it's hard to go on accompanies depression which can be treated in a lot of cases.

Of course, I don't know you, so if this advice is wrong for you, you don't have to take it, but it's what I've got to give.