Hi, I am pre-hrt and srs trans woman I am 18 years old. I came out to my parents 2 year ago, I didn't tell them that I want to transition, after 5-6 month I was crying in my room they caught me and asked me the reason, I told them I don't want to be a boy and they told me that I should be strong and told me that there a lot of people like me , I was feeling so bad and after a long conversation I told them that I want to transition and we have watched mtf transition videos. My mother was so sad she was nearly cry, then she told me that I will be another person If I do that they like me that way, I have denied that, she finally asked me to go endocrinology and a psychologist, then she leave and they talked about it . Everything was okay, after a 2-3 month I was shaving my arm because I don't want to look hairy, then I accidentally cut my arm it was a very little wound like a acne wound, but I was bleeding very bad I got scared and ran to my parents they bandaged my wound and ask about that I was crying and scared also my parents were scared and I told them I was shaving my arm, then my mother got angry and told me that she hate to be a women because of me and told me It will take attention if I shave my body. She said that she want to kill herself and It was a very stressful night. She slept in my room to control my wound I was angry to her but couldnt speak, and since then I cant talk about transition because I dont want to make them sad but It make me sad to live like this she was so egoist to tell me she want to die If they get mad again I will treat them like they do to me I am so angry and sad...
