Preparing for detransition. How to do it?

[Cynobyte]

Sorry, but I rather die than look like a masculine female.

Dont you get it, this is not a game.  You did this for a reason, and if you make this irrational decision, you may get your wish once you realize you cannot come back..  the odds of you not finishing this once you started is against you now.  Go back as a guy for now, stop the hormones, but dont do anything you will regret once you accept yourself.  I hope you find that day, hugs.. j

[Angieisalone]

Dont you get it, this is not a game.  You did this for a reason, and if you make this irrational decision, you may get your wish once you realize you cannot come back..  the odds of you not finishing this once you started is against you now.  Go back as a guy for now, stop the hormones, but dont do anything you will regret once you accept yourself.  I hope you find that day, hugs.. j

Who said that I thought this was a game?
I understand it's important to transition to feel comfortable in your skin; however apperance is very important and to me looking as feminine as possible is important.
I don't take masculine looking women serious and find them freighting. Sorry

[Cynobyte]

And how are you going to look as a guy?  Everything you have said is your choice.  We have to do what it takes to accept ourselves.  I can tell you horror stories what I have done to help my dysphoria.  Some may agree, others would think I need to be in a looney bin..  but im happy and alive! 

Just do what it takes to get you there.  A very wise person here reminded me that we can only advise based on our feelings and experiences.  Hopefully it will sink in before you do something you will regret. 

I cannot fix you masculine images you have of yourself.  I do wish I could have started with a face like yours.  Reminds me of brad pit saying he cannot act because he is too short;) 

Be good to yourself, i/we will be here when you decide who you are.  But this is the reason it takes years to change genders, you need to do the same process either way..  I cannot help you, but hope someone can on this..  hugs;)

[Cindy]

My dear Angei,

I say this with the greatest respect and feeling. I really do feel you need  to find a therapist who can give you psychotherapy. It is a hard road. But to be honest, you will not find happiness without it.

I very rarely give medical advice. On this occasion I feel I need to.

I am medically qualified to give such advice.

I see no reason to keep this thread open, you have advice, and you make your call. Please seek help