I'm sorry if this topic has been done a bazillion times and I will try to shorten this one more than usual because I really gotta go get my hair trimmed(its in patches and I can't take no more>.>).
But I want to read a well-thought out(but horribly written) letter over the phone to a neighbor right across the street from where I live. I am very afraid to even call her and do this because she has known me a long time since I was 5 years old as "Sparkle" and not as "Phoenix."
I think I upset her a lot when she discovered a book about the truths of transsexualism in her mail.
My father and I always get stuff from
Amazon.com whenever we are able to, and trust her enough to send some products to her house(as long as they aren't very large packages because she is elderly and in her 70s) because there are nosy kids in my 'hood. Unfortunately, I did not place my name on her address like I was supposed to, but instead placed her name on it to avoid being mistaken as an identity thief or some ^&*%. One night I go to my dresser to make a very unwelcomed discovery; the package I waited happily for was opened. Well, I know it was not my father, who I intended it for any way because he is good about never opening up my mail. And then he told me the news I feared took place; my neighbor opened it.
It seems that fate jolted and fast forwarded me to a very strange place I am not ready to be in yet. I was not ready and still feel so unprepared to come out fully to her, my neighbor. She is also very conservative/religious/Christian, which makes this even more uneasy for me. If my handwriting was good or I had access to her email and/or a printer, I would give her a letter in an envelope and place it in her mailbox or hand it to her directly and run back home before she finished(and trust me, I would make it too cause this is one long @#$ letter, lol!).
I am debating whether to come out to her this week, today, or later next week. She was very riled up the last time we spoke on the phone concerning her mail. I assumed she was going to cut me off(not sure whether she did, is, or not), but stated her mail has been acting up. I think she fabricated this and is ashamed to even know me now. So because things went down like that, I really have no choice but to at least speak up and try to make things right, instead of allowing our long, casual friendship as neighbors to tunnel on down the drain without so much as a fight from my end.
Any advice guys and gals? How did ya'll come out to ya'lls neighbors? Am I on the right track?
IMO, I just feel like our coming out journeys never end because new people means new closets to open.
