Hi to all,
I have been reading threads on the site for some time and get them in my Yahoo feed daily. I have found the site and its members to be a great source of inspiration as well as info.
About Franny
I have always wanted to be female - my earliest recollections being in the 5 yr old range. I was however, born in the 50's, and could never let my parents really know the depth of my feelings. In the 1980's while living in the DC area, I discovered the internet, became a BBS Sysop for a TGirl chat room, and joined a "sorority", run by a fantastic T, Betty Ann Lind. The ladies there taught me how to be safe, how to dress more appropriately, and how to accept the deep dark secrets we all held. This sorority met in Alexandria VA, and most of the members were government workers, like myself with security clearances, that if revoked would have ended our careers.
After moving out and getting divorced, I began to go out as Franny, and learned quickly to appreciate the company of male admirers. I loved the attention, the validation that I looked good, and quite honestly the sex as a woman dating a man. The attraction to men was nothing new, but the freedom from guilt was. At this time however, my divorce was locked in a nasty child custody battle, and given the times, I was afraid I would lose visitation no less joint custody of my young daughter. So back in the closet, and on to a new marriage to trey once again to suppress Franny. I told my current wife on the 2nd date about Franny, but I think its impossible for a CIS to fully understand the depth of feelings I and many others, experience.
Now, twenty years later I have finally told my two best male friends as well as my daughter. My friends likely don't fully get it, but I do think my daughter does. I am unemployed and at 62, will likely stay that way. I spend my days now, searching for men on various chat sites, and hiding in the house as Franny. I worry about what will happen as I age, and having seen the restrictions of nursing homes, what the hell I will do when the inevitable occurs.
With that off my flat chest, I am not really looking for advise, just a friendly, been there done that and heres how I worked through it. We are all different, and no one answer works for any of us. I appreciate reading all of the trials, foibles, and successes of the members here and look forward to more participation.
Two questions:
1. How do I add my picture to forum responses I may type?
2. How can I be helpful to the site, as money right now, is tight.
Howdy to all and a big hug to Susan for the site.
