i am not going in depth about things right now, but hope you get the general idea from this (would also like to excuse for my lousy English, and some terms may, or may not be pronounced correct)
Born Male, felt like a female since the age of 5ish (between 5-6 somewhere) Now 23, and trying to get something done with it. Since my mother was not rather happy about finding me in CD. and shouted at me "are you sick, do you want to se a shrink" this has spiked a fear in me, and i saw the words shrink as a bad thing, at this time i was 10, not that i stopped CD, but the fear of beeing open about it to people got started. and was keept in the family. But never discussed with me, so i lived my life til the age of almost 16 (when i first moved out from home) in the belief that this was nothing more than a sickness. but the feelings just became stronger and stronger. Espessialy when you try to please your family and get "healthy Male interests" which never happend, just made me depressed.
Just started to talk to friends about it, and this is a try to see if i can build up some currage about it, and doing it slowly over time, but dont want to speak to my regular doctor about it, since its a known thing that they dont keep their mouths shut around here... and im not quite ready to go out with full name and that yet. i would much rather speak to a Gender therapist about it, I live in Norway. and you got to go through this and that, before you can see one. so i am thinking about moving to a "big city" to just get lost in the crowd, Just to get a doctors appointment and work out some kind of plan for it.
Sorry, im rather closed in, and i am not the best to write either. tried earlyer today, started out really simple, but got over complicated, so just had to slow down, and start over, ended up being almost a novelle, instead of an introduction lol. If you want to know something, just Ask. This is the internet, And i acctualy am lost in the crowd
Anyways, have a great day people!
Love from Dizzie
