So today I went to the seminar at charing cross. At first I was very uncomfortable and certainly distress but was able to hide this, I had never been round anybody else who is trans and this made me doubtful of myself, as I could not really see anybody else waiting outside that I felt was like me. Sorry if this sounds bad I just can't explain what I mean any better I can only really say there was no one I felt I was similar to, I know you shouldn't judge a book by it's cover but there was nobody there that I looked at and went I I'm gunna go talk to them or I would socialise with. like I said I'm sorry if that sound bad no offence meant.
I did start to relax though when a "guy" sat down next to me and said hi. We had stuff to talk about like his past in the army and sport mainly.
And then I was pleasantly surprised by what was said by the doctors about what will happen and correcting all the stuff that you read and get told about what they expect, firstly the don't expect you to wear a skirt or dress and that you don't have to wear makeup every day.
One quick question do you find that you don't really care about what everybody can see as this is not what hurts, it's what you are the only one that sees or knows about that really hurts. Like although living full time for a year if I'm not going out that day I don't always shave my facial hair as it doesn't bother that much ok it would be nice not to have to shave when I go out but my real issue is getting dressed in the morning or taking a shower.
