Dysphoria at 40,000 feet. It just won't go away!

[Jayne01]

Hi everyone.

Something weird happened to me today. My wife and I have been traveling around Europe for the past 4 weeks. It has been a fantastic holiday except for the constant dysphoria which has been getting steadily worse everyday. It's driving me crazy! Today is our last day and we are making our way back home (Australia, it's a long trip). When we got to the airport, I don't know what happened but the dysphoria was gone! We had to change our clothes at the airport (we were driving for about 6 hours) and while I was changing it occurred to me that the dysphoria wasn't there. I thought AWESOME! I'M CURED!!! We checked in for our flight, roamed around a little, had something to eat. Nothing! It was gone. What a relief from having bad dysphoria every minute of every day up to this point.

Well, we are on the plane now and the dysphoria is back! What a bummer I thought I had the cure, book yourself on a flight. Alas, it was not to be...
There is free internet on the flight and I just felt like posting this.

Jayne

[KristinaM]

Cool!  I've never used internet on an airplane before.    Hope you had (or are having) a good flight!

So sorry to hear about the dysphoria though.  Ask to borrow your wife's earrings maybe. 

[Jayne01]

Hi Kristina. Flight was good. Finally made it home now. Body clock is now all screwed up. It's 7am here now and I'm about to go to bed. I've never used internet on a plane before either. It was a bit of a novelty and I forgot to ask the question I intended to ask.

Why would my dysphoria have gone away while we were in the airport? During that flight (6.5 hours) and the next flight (about 14hours), I was trying to come up with a reason why it went away at the airport and during the flight it came back. The best I could come up with was at the airport my mind was busy with checking in, clearing security, finding the gate etc... However, on the flight I was just sitting in a seat doing nothing, maybe watching a movie or two, so my mind was free to wander. And it kept wandering to why I am the way I am and wasn't born a girl.

It was a nice break to have the dysphoria go away (brief as it was), after being the constant noise in my head for weeks continuously. Too bad it didn't last

Jayne

[HoneyStrums]

I have traveled, and i always feel diferently just efore I start the trip home. (not exacly dysphoria related)
But no matter how enjoyable the trip. When comming home I just feel different. Like I cant wait to get home. So checking in and all the other stuff is the only thing I can think about. Takes my mind away from everything ells.

I think it might be because at that time, you was more botherd if they said sorry you cant go home yet because, rather then how they adressed you.

" Ma'am we have a problemb" being more stressfull then "sir we dont have one?"

I know ts a bit slly to think like that. But Just a thought