These last few weeks I almost didn't come to the forum. I was preparing some things for going back to Uruguay, which I finally did last Sunday.
It's my first time here since my transition, so I'm very nervous about meeting everybody here and about how life is going to be in what still is a very transphobic country.
As some of you may know, my goal is to save some money to go to my other home country, where I'll be able to do the medical part of my transition. Because of that, one of the top priorities for me right now is finding a job. With 90% of trans women working in prostitution I decided to take off my dreadlocks, to get rid of the other obstacle for employment.
So this morning I took a pot of conditioner, a large needle and a comb and got to it. Now, this last couple of weeks my scalp, neck and shoulders were itching a lot. I attributed it to the extreme heat in Brazil and irritation from sweat, so I made an even bigger effort to keep my hair clean. Well, now, when trying to undo my locks, my biggest fear was confirmed. I found lice. I had looked before but I hadn't found any....
I'm sitting in the restroom with a hair cap on, my hair soaked in alcohol vinegar (it burns like crazy), hoping it will kill all of these unwanted guests. But I'm starting to fear that between this and how tightly locked my hair is, I may have to end up cutting my hair off... I'm trying not to think about it too much or I'll break into tears...
Getting a wig is not an option for me, anything that would look decent would be too expensive for me (I'm currently unemployed), specially considering it would be only for a few months while my hair grows back (this is when fast growing hair comes in handy). So if I do cut it, I'll have to own it. You can see my ugly unlasered, unHRTed face in my profile pic. Do you have any advice for looking more feminine with a buzzed head? I'm not concerned with passing, as much as with sending the clear message that I am presenting as a woman.
