Big, really big hugs
And big, big warm welcome to Susan's.
I am so sorry that those terrible and horrifying things have occurred and disrupted/disrupting your life.
Is there anywhere you can relocate to?
Do your parents know?
Have you talked to the law enforcement about the attacks both physical and verbally? You should if you have not.
Anyway you have friends and support here, we feel for you and want... wish that you can get yourself out of such a toxic environment.
Lots of love Katy