I am very new to all of this and decided a forum would be a good way to gather information. I am possibly an transmale, but I am still looking into it. I know that I have been struggling with this all the way back since elementary school when I always wished I was a boy, and I am 24 now. I constantly am depressed over situations around this and over trying to to gain a proper understanding about what I am going through. The more videos and information I look up about this, the more I seem to fit into it.
I always thought I was asexual because I had a 'flacid' effect even though I was completely interested which now I am just wondering if it is because I am equipped with all the wrong parts. I have only had a few 'fantasties', but every time they were with me 'equipped' differently.
I have noticed that even in writing I have always connected with male characters more, and despite struggling I could hardly find the inspiration to write female characters, and the 'like a girl' comments feel like they are stabbing me when I receive them. I also enjoyed cosplaying as men over women more often than not.
Coming out to my brother was easy, and my father would be an easy one to talk to about it as well, but my mother and sister worry me as being completely judgmental. I hope that through talking here with other people that I might be able to gain some more insight by people that have or are going through the same situation as me and be able to come to a better understanding of what I really need to do for myself.
