First time out in public as the real me

[MyNameIsElla]

So I went out in public for the first time today in girl mode. I mean I've gone to gay bars dressed as a wannabe drag queen before but this was different. Out in public as a women I definitely passed cause a guy held the door for me and people were generally nicer and more open with me. Beyond that however for the longest time I've felt like my entire life there was a dementor following me and my happiness would never ever return. But for the first time today when I went out and it was just something as simple as grocery shopping I honestly felt like I could be happy. Like this great grey filter that was covering my life finally disapeared and I could see the bright colors again.

[barbie]

So I went out in public for the first time today in girl mode. I mean I've gone to gay bars dressed as a wannabe drag queen before but this was different. Out in public as a women I definitely passed cause a guy held the door for me and people were generally nicer and more open with me. Beyond that however for the longest time I've felt like my entire life there was a dementor following me and my happiness would never ever return. But for the first time today when I went out and it was just something as simple as grocery shopping I honestly felt like I could be happy. Like this great grey filter that was covering my life finally disapeared and I could see the bright colors again.

Yes. People become nicer and more open. But the problem is when they hear my low voice....

Anyway, congrats on your first outing.

barbie~~

[TG CLare]

Congratulations on your first time in public as yourself. You seemed to have handled it well.

My first time out was the most frightening thing I think I've ever done! I swear my heart rate was way above the safe zone although it probably wasn't. 

I find now that people do seem to treat me much better. Doors are held, and I seem to be treated with a respect that was lacking in my old persona. Don't get me wrong, I'm no raving beauty although I like who I see in the mirror so that can't be it.

It took me a while before I got enough courage to go into shops etc but now it's nothing at all!

Love,
Clare