I have just spoken to my 14 year old daughter after an earlier conversation gave me an opportunity to capture the moment. I was scared and embarrassed but just let it all out to her, going into a bit of detail. I told her about how long I'd been cross-dressing, how many clothes I have and what I would like to do going forward with regards to HRT, going full-time and possibly even SRS....amongst discussing the whole concept of gender/sexual identity/preference etc.
Amazingly, she was very understanding and, although smiling and laughing (mainly because I was laughing and making the odd joke here and there), understood what I was saying, how I felt and seemed accepting. At one point she told me that no matter what happens, I'm still her dad inside and she doesn't or will not hate me if I see it through. I thought that was a very respectful and grown up attitude from a young girl who'd just been told her dad doesn't want to be a man any more! I realise it destroys the mould and text book family life that we have drummed into us as youngster and expressed concerns that I was tearing down everything she might have dreamed about as we all get older.
It was such a relief to a) tell her and b) get the reaction I got. She is desperate to see my wardrobe and likes the idea of us going out for a coffee/clothes shop. I have an eye for fashion and am more into clothes shopping than her mother....even as a man!!!!! I'm a bit worried now that she might not like some of the clothes!!
Now for the 11 year old and fingers crossed and can be more open and overt with my dressing up prior to moving further down the path to transition. I'm desperate to get home from work and put on casual women's clothing without having to sneak about and keep an ear out for people coming downstairs.
Good luck to anybody else who's in a similar position.
Jenni
