Worried about my doctor's appointment tomorrow

[victoriafrantic]

I might be starting HRT tomorrow. Maybe... I'm excited but i'm afraid of getting too excited, I guess I just need to talk about it. (37,mtf)

A week ago I had an appointment with my family doctor. I asked him for a referral to the one psychiatrist in our area who is the main psychiatrist for handling transgender patients and one of two in my province who can authorize GRS (yay canada). He has a year and a half waiting list, and I assumed I would have to wait that long until I started on HRT as well, since it's rare to find doctors who will prescribe hormones here, and I live in a small town.

But I asked him anyway - given the long wait time, I'm hoping you can prescribe me hormones and treat me until I get in to see him.  I expected a no, but I got a yes. No problem, he'd be happy to. YAAAAAAY.

He hasn't done this before, but he's happy to learn. He said he wasn't ready to prescribe me anything right now, but he'll do some research and we can meet again next week (which is now tomorrow).

I am insanely excited that at the prospect of starting HRT in less than 15 hours. But I'm a really pessimistic person, and I can't imagine it going this easily, I can't imagine something not going wrong.

Like, he does some research and realizes - oh crap I can't do this, its too complicated and dangerous

Ugh. I have a thousand worries, but they all boil down to this - he can't just give me hormones can he? I know he can, some other doctors do, it's just hard to believe that somehow on my first try without any convincing I somehow found a clueful, open minded doctor who's willing to help me. How could something so lucky, so good, possibly happen to me?

(sorry, I have ADHD and an anxiety disorder, I can't really stop the negative thoughts).

So yeah. I'm super excited to start HRT tomorrow, even though I'm quite sure it'll never happen

[Ms Grace]

Well, it's better to have someone who fully knows what they're doing so if he feels he's not able to I understand what a blow that would be but possibly safer for you in the short and long term. He may decide he needs a blood test first so be prepared for that too. Good luck!!

[Laurie K]

I think it is important that he do blood screening before and on a regular sched for hormonal changes,changes to body organs. Talk to him more may be he can get you a referral to an endo. That would be a safe bet, the safest would be waiting. Also get a therapist for reasons of day to day issues of transition and early hormone issues.   Your health and wellbeing should  the main concern...... it will all come together.

[iKate]

I will go against the grain here and say that it's not urgently important to do a lab and wait for results before prescribing. He/she can start you off on a low dose to see how you are tolerating it before ramping up your dose later.

Some of them do like to get baseline levels, however.

If you've had a recent physical bring that along to.