Doing Experiments at Work, the First time I felt Oppressed

[Martine A.]

Time we started a countdown for you Hon!

How long before FT?

Thanks point taken. Indeed, they are/will be seeing me in female pants, shirts, heeled sandals, girly sneakers, with less and less beard, and other stuff, but big gap is the barren head. I will have to come out with that less than ignorable jump by coming in with wig over it.

Besides, I am horrified of countdowns, they'd keep reminding me how much time I have left to endure. I would like to do things asap, and start 'counters since' instead.

I plan to come out to my mom in coming months.

[Martine A.]

I didn't resist it. After I put on tight jeans, also a femme shirt had to go on with them. Then I also picked heeled sandals.

That's it for today. I plan to put on a wig as soon as I leave building where I work and go shopping. But it would be heavy rain, so might just put it on and go home. This would become a regular thing. Easier than to first go home and get dressed up, BUT will still have to show off my beard shadow this way.

Wish me luck.

[Martine A.]

Gotta share this. I said already I do have a nice bum. Here is what happened today...

Today I walked first with one group of people through the building, then with another group of people. I was not leading them or anything, usual walks between meetings.

In both groups, everyone and literally everyone would let me go first. Even women. I intentionally stopped multiple times to let others pass me, and they wouldn't! They'd stop to have conversation or something. In the end, I'd move and everyone else after me.

Wow, that's flattering. But as described above, I only missed a wig and a clean face to pass. Like I pass on the street.  Oh, the breast were missing too...

So it went well. Will keep wearing tight jeans at work. And elsewhere. Yepee!

[Lynne]

You go girl! It's a great feeling isn't it?
As I only have tight jeans in my wardrobe I didn't really have much choice in what to wear when I went to my last job interview in December. The receptionist of the building looked at me and said: "Hello miss, can I help you?" I quickly mumbled the name of the company I was looking for and went to the interview, trying to be as manly as possible(ha ha...)

[Martine A.]

As I only have tight jeans in my wardrobe

That is how it is going to get here soon. More male clothing to decommission.
I wore those man pants when I had like 15 kilos more... that is like 33 pounds I lost since January. And counting.

[Martine A.]

Tomorrow adding feminine sleeveless hoodie. It is raining here. Starting to go to work without fake breast but with a wig. All I need doing is take the wig off while on work. Still shame for having beard shadow...

[HoneyStrums]

wow, just been reading.

Esentially your slowly Introducing yourself to work this has the advantage of being less of a shock

[Tessa James]

I admire anyone who can come out on the job successfully.  I didn't do it all the way and was all about clues and hints that most didn't notice or they simply considered me gay.  Like others here I had a woman's watch and jewelry, long nails and long hair.  No one ever said a thing to my face but I am pretty scrappy in a confrontation.  In the end what they think never really mattered at all, I still get to be me.

[Martine A.]

Esentially your slowly Introducing yourself to work this has the advantage of being less of a shock

That was the plan. But see... after the office seemed to be silently accepting my ass shape exposed, I am beginning to act rather impulsively. After only two days of tight jeans it is probably not time to add another item -- like the hoodie. Reasonable would be to wait for two weeks to pass so people get accustomed to it. But today I will not only go with the hoodie but also in gray-pink sneakers. I was so annoyed I could wear them elsewhere but not to work. Today that ends.

Dysphoria is so strong, I really want to get rid of all men clothing and introduce the full set of women stuff. That drive might get in the way of doing things slowly. Desire to go FT is strong, since the work is the only place where I still have to physically present as a man.

[KristinaM]

Does your HR department know about all of this?  You might have mentioned it in an earlier post that I read, but I don't remember, sorry!  >_<  I'm really proud of you for taking these steps.  I'm also envious that your job has a dress code that allows you to wear jeans and hoodies and sneakers and whatever else it sounds like too!  I have to wear boring slacks every day with polo shirts.  But at least it's girl slacks and polos mostly now. 

You should definitely take it slowly.  I've been changing my attire at work over the past 3 months now, and things were going just fine until I wore one of my girl polo shirts for the first time this week on Mon/Tues.  People started staring at me and looking me up and down!  It was slightly uncomfortable, lol, but no comments.  So I'm back to a boy polo today to hopefully soothe the restless natives, hehe.

Congrats on that weight loss too, it's nice to not have to carry around a small child with you all day isn't it?

I just want to box up all my boy clothes and never see them again sometime too, but I must wait, so I'm just thinning the wardrobe down to the essentials for now to make room for more girl stuff. 

[Martine A.]

Indeed one is lucky to have employer that gives a lot of freedom when it comes to cis dressing at least. Crossdressing is how my appearance is perceived, so there could be some spots I don't want to poke. Now that I showed off today, I can keep it at that level in weeks to come.

Of course dysphoria pushes me to keep getting slimmer. Me in a tight shirt pulled in pants, which I didn't do at work yet, would intrigue many female colleagues if not make them envious. Femme shirts I wear at work are wide enough to conceal my shape.

All in all, this is a great progress... I am wearing 'passable' female clothing both at work and outside it.

[Martine A.]

Still could not resist it. Tighter shirt yday to show my narrow rib cage and flat belly.

That drew attention of many women and one man. I mean they watched me for an extended period of time. Otherwise, boys are sweet when they get confused and drop things out of their hands!

Toned it down today. Normal shirt. :-)

[Eva Marie]

Wow you are sure skirting close to the edge!

(see what I did there?  )

Good luck with your stealth transition.

I stayed firmly in guy mode with my levis and button down shirts with my boobs sticking out just a bit and guy haircut through my last day, totally boring and bland and predictable - just another random dude.

When I showed back up as myself as work 3 days later it was in full girl mode with heels and nails and tight skinny jeans, looking much better. People never saw any of it coming 

[Martine A.]

Just heard word '->-bleeped-<-'. One timer will pass. Second one will be mentioned upstream.

At my company the immediate hr only needs to know if I legally change sex. I should already have management to back me up by default.

[Martine A.]

Today I am taking the jeans thing to the last notch. Skin tight jeans at work. Wish me luck.

[Martine A.]

That went okay. Definitely got many looks and one man with very weird comments on the whole me but that is it.

[KristinaM]

Congrats!  So what's left? 

[Martine A.]

Thanks.
Only wig and breasts not added yet. Hopefully will grow the latter.

[Martine A.]

So, conclusion, it worked. I pushed and found little to no resistance.

This is also an experience outside work, since I can't always find enough privacy to put on a wig. When I am like that, I noticed that guys will rather stand in a tram than sit near me, while women don't think twice. They just sit and we respect each other's space. I like it.

Currently I am starting to collect information and then hopefully talk with company representatives about full time.

That will be a relief for dysphoria. Full time. I am a lazy girl with below average prettiness, thus not an icon of femininity for sure. But just being myself and getting treated as the right gender will make my life longer.

[Martine A.]

The last month was both stressful and fruitful.

My dysphoria got so strong I decided to find and approach the right HR people and the management.

If I am to trust their words, my full time is coming soon. Feels like about to be finally set free.
It will be hard work educating people, I *am* the only one in the department that is almost 1k people. But the management will be with me.

On the stress side, it was not my intent to lose 5kg of weight in a single month. It had to stop.