I don't know what to do. I feel stuck. I want to go further along exploring what I am, but I'm such a chicken I can't see how I can do much besides sneaking about, crossdressing unconvincingly in private.
I've not been exploring it for long, just a few months. There are times where I feel more excited and motivated than I have for years because of it, then an instant later I realise how much I suck at all this, and how I just am too much of a chicken to go further with it, and suddenly I feel like crap.
I have no idea what to do. I suck so bad at this. I want to go further, but I just can't.