Let's see here. My social life doesn't exist any longer. My studies are going nowhere. I've been thinking about suicide every day during the last two weeks. I spend my days either sitting on the computer or being miserable at school.
My family has stopped feeling like a family. My father doesn't understand anything, while my mother makes me feel even worse if I tell her about my worries. My dogs, whom I always loved before, are now little more than an annoyance. I've got exactly zero friends, or even anyone I actually care about.
Religion-wise, I realized that the gods don't care about us.
It's test week, and I can't focus on studying. I have two projects, which I can barely even start doing.
I feel so angry, and sad, all the time. I literally have to cry myself to sleep every night.
Worst of all, I've been this way for a long, long time. I've just drowned my sorrows in fiction, by reading or playing video games and watching movies, when I felt bad before. Now, it's not working any longer.
I would like to continue believing in the words "There is a better tomorrow". But I have no idea how to reach that better tomorrow. And I can't just wait it out.
