Want to be the real me

[lexxie_black86]

Not a day goes by that I don't feel uncomfortable in my own skin... Everytime I look in the mirror I see a sad woman trapped in the shell of a man, begging to come out, but my fears and insecurities prevent me from taking the steps necessary to set her free. I'm bisexual so that doesn't make things easier... especially seeing no one knows I am except the guy I dated years ago... about all I can do to "silence" the urges, is crossdress when no one is around but that's not enough anymore. I want to be a female 24/7. I feel confident and I can't stop smiling when I crossdress, because my thoughts immediately turn to "This is who I am. This is the real me" and "I'm so beautiful!!!" I just hope one day the world gets to see the real me...

[CarlyMcx]

I know what you mean.  The real me is pretty much confined to the house and gardens, at least for now.  When I go out in the world I assume the guise of a middle aged man in a suit and tie.


  So what is stopping you from coming out?  Wife, children, career?

[ajthomas]

I hope, for your sake, you can be the real you soon. Everyone deserves it and you should too.

[lexxie_black86]

I hope, for your sake, you can be the real you soon. Everyone deserves it and you should too.

Thank you I feel better knowing that I people support me encourage me

[lexxie_black86]

I know what you mean.  The real me is pretty much confined to the house and gardens, at least for now.  When I go out in the world I assume the guise of a middle aged man in a suit and tie.


  So what is stopping you from coming out?  Wife, children, career?

Gf, and wondering if my mom would accept me. She's a huge part of my life, and I don't know if she would be supportive or disown me..

[JoanneB]

Not a day goes by that I don't feel uncomfortable in my own skin... Everytime I look in the mirror I see a sad woman trapped in the shell of a man, begging to come out, but my fears and insecurities prevent me from taking the steps necessary to set her free. ... about all I can do to "silence" the urges, is crossdress when no one is around but that's not enough anymore. I want to be a female 24/7. I feel confident and I can't stop smiling when I crossdress, because my thoughts immediately turn to "This is who I am. This is the real me" and "I'm so beautiful!!!" I just hope one day the world gets to see the real me...

Sounds a lot like I was except seeing the sad guy in a mirror all the time and especially NOT the "I am beautiful" part. (OK I had LOTS of self esteem issues)

Yet in spite of my utter and total lack of confidence and self esteem I dared to step out into the real world as the real me. Nothing major except the few baby steps it took to walk out the door and back in. One little step led to another led to .....

Baby Steps combined with jumping into the deep end of the pool. Many of the events around any sort of transition takes a fantastic leap of faith. Or, to put it another way, "Which Pain is Worse?" The answer to that question usually tells me loud and clear what needs to be done

[Shads]

Hi Lexxie

I think most of here have or still do feel the same way that you do.  We will all say the same thing...get to your GP and tell them you NEED to see a Gender Therapist.  Just take small steps to the be person who you truly are.  One day the caterpillar shell will open to reveal the beautiful butterfly that you are.

*hugs*

[Dena]

I assume you are a young adult and as such the path your life will take is up to you. If you decide to remain as you are, you will remain that way. If you wish to transition, you have much work to do but you have us to guide you. It is possible that you may decide not to complete the transition but you will never know unless you start. We are waiting your decision and your requests for help. The transition will not happen over night but may take 2 or 3 years and it will be made as a number of small steps so don't fear a big change in your life. Change will take place over time.

[lexxie_black86]

Hi Lexxie

I think most of here have or still do feel the same way that you do.  We will all say the same thing...get to your GP and tell them you NEED to see a Gender Therapist.  Just take small steps to the be person who you truly are.  One day the caterpillar shell will open to reveal the beautiful butterfly that you are.

*hugs*

Not to sound ignorant but what's GP?

[Dena]

GP is short for General practitioner or the main doctor you deal with. In many insurance plans, you need to see the GP in order to get a referral to a specialist. Don't worry, we use short hand all the time because it's just to much to type it out all the time.