Forgive me f I posted this in the wrong part of ths site only, on the FFS section they appear to be years old also, I can't find a way of posteing this on there anyway and have spent ages trying to find a way.
Please can someone advize me as I really need some help.
The only surgery I ever had facial before was only a couple of minor things as that was all I really needed as I looked perfectly natural as a female and very attractive too. The problem was psychological damage cause to me by my family 'Rejection and held in shame.'
This lead me to go to CA for ffs surgery quite a fews years ago and the surgeon there left me in a terrible state. He completely destroyed by beautiful thick long hair as most if fel out along the front and more. The surgery overall was terrible in every way and he utterly ruined all my features and made look just so bad I ended up having a nervous breakdown altogether.
Many years passed and I plucked up the courage to try again only this time I went to Chicago. It was the very worst mistake I ever made in my life as that surgeon left me in a far worse state than the previous surgeon. In fact it was so bad my Grandpa insisted I go stay with him for support as he knew if I was alone trying to deal with this alone he may not for long have a granddaughter around it was that bad. He called the surgeon's office and spoke with him on the phone but this surgeon has so much mouth it is hard to try and het a word in one way or the other. My Grandpa stopped him in his tracks and asked him what he thought he was playing at as he had completely ruined all my features and in fact had not done anything he agreed to do but had done the complete oposite and that I looked terrible and he made look like an old woman whereas I am not old at all. The surgeon called my Grandpa a liar? and put the phone down on him.
This surgeon ignored all our emails until in the end we had no choice other than to catch a flight to Chicago to sort this mess out only, the surgeon didn't want to know. He had his money from me and even refused a refund. he is nothing other than a crook and the evidence is overwhelming.
I spent 15 long months in isolation very depressed and could not even stand looking at myself in the mirror anymore that I went abroad to try and get this mess sorted out. It too 4 different surgeons over the course of 10 months and 22 surgeries to try and unpick the mess. many surgeons were too afraid to even try to resolve what the Chicago surgeon dd to me.
Today although the uglyness ofwhat the Chicago surgeon caused me in my features which have now gone thank goodness, the problem I have now is that they have not given me feminine features and I look less feminine than I ever have in my entire life what with virtually no cheeks and a slightly bulbous nose. I don't wish to list everything as it upsets me.
One surgeon took over 5 hours to try and remove the right cheeks implant as the Chicago surgeon had placed it right up close to the eye and there are nerves there that if not careful removing the implant could cause facial paralysis.
All the surgeons there checked the credntials of this Chicago surgeon and said he s highly qualified as they are and the only conlcusion they could come to was what he did was intentional. They said they have never seen such terrible surgery in all their careers. The Chicago surgeon left my face looking gaunt whereas beforehand I was never gaunt looking. The nose was bent and out of shape. The cheek implants where far too big for me as I only have a petite face as well as they were completely assymetrical by 1.5 inches and one side of my face looked different than the other.
When I did origianly raise this with the Chicago surgeon after he butchered me, he said he had to position them like that because my natural bone structure is not symmetrical?
I had a 3-D Cranial scan done to prove he is a liar because there is nothing wrong with my natural bone structure.
Thw Chicago surgeon has also left me with scars around both my eyes as well all around my nose.
I even had fat grafting to my buttocks and hips which was done whilst abroad and at first it looked really good but after 3 months it eventually dipsersed and I have the same figure now as before. In otherwords it couldn't have been done properly in the first place.
I feel like I am being punnished in life as this is a never ending story, yet I see others having really lovely surgeries and just getting on with their lives, yet all the money I ever have which was suppose to be for my future is all going on surgery afer surgery and all because of those 2 surgeons in the US.
I had endless counselling because of this and the counsellor said I looked to very naturally beautiful before all these so-called FFS butchers did what they did to me.
The surgeon in CA thought I died some years ago but what does he care ot the Chicago surgeon for that matter. They got their monies worth out of me and that's all they cared about. Evil! There is no other word to describe those 2 other than pure evil for what they did to me and I have kept all the photographs over the years in case one day I can do something about them as evidence.
I always used to have a boyfriend and always had guys wanting to date me before all this.
The spychological damage to me has been so bad I have not had a single relationship ever since. Not only has my confidence been severely dented but, I no-longer trust men and cannot allow them into my life anymore. I just cannot trust men after this. Obivosuly I cannot go on this way and need to hopefully get someone to help me by guiding me in the right direction to find a really good understanding surgeon who this time will 'Listen' and do what he says he can do and not butcher me like the other two.
I just want to regain my female features, it mean so much to me because it is tearing me apart living this way from day-to-day.
I would like to find a good highly reccommended surgeon and if at all possible to have some moral support this time so I don't get taken for a ride all over again.
If there is anyone out there who can please help me to find a good trusting surgeon who would listen to what I need doing rather than sugeons who operate on what I call a 'Conveyer Belt method' with all these packages as I don't need all that then please can someone get back to me with some good references and advice.
I just want my life back.
Thank you for your time and patients.
