Hi, Linda, your day of glory will come. Just listen to the little voice within you. You could call it intuition, and she will tell you when it's time. Intuition is a woman's best friend and believe me, she will come out stronger after a time on hormones.
My involvement with children may not yet be finished. I have a board very much like Susan's here and I have been building it up to be used as tool for helping moms and children with home schooling. Home schooling is fast becoming popular. There are some very bright children out there with high IQs that just can't learn in a conventional school.
Yes, I know much too well about playing the role of two genders. Having to go to work and coming back as a male is no fun. After a while it just got too hard on me having to play that charade and had to do something about it. I used to go out of town to other places where no one knew me dressed as my true self. I even got bold and went to a beach, wearing the proper female attire for the beach and this was a large beach with hundreds of people there. I ended up spending the entire day there lying on a towel in the sand.
I remember how sad I felt when I left the beach. That was what did it for me, I just simply couldn't handle living both genders. I felt like a fake, as phony as a three dollar bill. I just decided that it was hard enough having to survive in a world that seemed to persist to crap on me, I at least thought that I may as well continue to be crapped on as a female if it's going to do it anyway, regardless of gender.
Well I did learn one thing. I discovered that a woman has her own unique inner strength and it just felt to me that the big turds in life turned out to be only little wee rabbit droppings. Heck all I have to do is take out my tin umbrella and I'm safe from whatever is falling that day. As for being emotional? What better way to bleed the poison out than with tears?
You will do OK, Hon. When the little voice speaks you will know when it's time.
Sincerely,
Cindy
