Well I know this is a tad strange putting this in the intro room but I really didn't know where else to put this and if an admin wants to put it elsewhere I am cool with that as well.
When I first came to this forum I was confused and scared and just lost in general when it came to being transgender and CD or whatever other label you want to put it under. I came out when I was 22 years old as gay and then after 6 years I went back in the closet because I was disgusted by the way the gay community treated each other and then I come here and I get the same kind of feelings that come rushing back in really hard and I am like why am I doing this and why do I need to do this.
So with that being said I am leaving the forum and going to find other things and other places that are perhaps more comfortable of a setting. I am nowhere near in my life where the rest of you are at and I don't really deserve to be here. Perhaps suppressing the feelings is the way to go and the way that I deal with it all. Perhaps transitioning is not in the cards for me because I enjoy doing other things more than making that change. Perhaps I feel like its too late in life to get to that level where I want to be.
I have learned a lot in the little time that I have been here and I appreciate the wisdom from everyone but this is just not the place for me right now and I am not sure if it ever will be.
So again thanks for everything but its time for me to move on and perhaps if I ever take the leap of transitioning and all that I will come back and perhaps then this place will have some meaning to me. Though being treated like I don't belong has made me realize that perhaps I really don't. Thanks.
I am not sure if this is allowed and if not feel free to edit this admin but if anyone wants to contact me you can at
adenaTG@gmail.com, otherwise if this is deleted then I wish you all the best in every thing that you do and wish you best on the path that you take.