The thing about letters is, you'll be stuck with anticipation until she brings it up. I dumped my letter on the couch before I went to work (while my mom was upstairs), and I was absolutely frozen with fear when IIgot off. I felt like I was going to have a panic attack, and had to buy one of those NeuroBliss" drinks to calm myslef down. Turns out though, the anticipation is worse than what actually happens. (Or at least it was in my case.) Just try to relax. Chances are it's not going to be as bad as you think.