i can't stand any of this. my mom's been increasingly yelling at me calling me "disgusting", "freak", and various other things for trying to express and explore my identity and sexuality, and i just feel horrible about everything. i feel like i shouldn't be here, like i'm just not compatible to be here. my mom has straight up told me that she doesn't support me and doesn't like what i'm doing or how i feel, and told me to do it (commit suicide) when i told her about depression and how horrible i feel and that i want to commit.