Sorry if the posts is a mess + Roxi is a combination of my first and last name.
When I was 12 years old it all started, I started to like girl clothes, girl activities, etc. But I never showed it and always tried to be a normal boy. I managed to suppress most of my feelings till I was around 16 it started to slowly come back and it reached a point where I would dress up on a daily basis to feel a little better. Around this time I also found out about transgender and gender dysphoria. I've always been quiet and shy so telling something like this to anyone was near impossible for me.
I'm now 19 years old and reached a point where I could not handle it anymore and had to somehow tell someone. I was irritated and moody all day, and everything you said could set me off and make me extremely angry. Which led to a big fight with my stepfather a few weeks ago (Which is all good again), and I decided to just move to my dads place.
And for some reason the moment I left my moms house I had the urge to tell her, But I didn't have the guts to tell her in person about my gender dyspohria. So I decided to send her a message through WhatsApp (Lol... I know) but still I had troubles typing it down and pressing the send button so I just send her this "I want to tell you something but I'm too scared, I hope I can soon tell you." she got very worried and wanted me to just say it. I didn't tell her I just started giving little hints and hoped she would figure it out herself. At some point I got "Are you gay, if you're then please don't worry". I didn't really know how to reply because I don't know what my sexuality is at this point so I replied with "That's not it"
Then it was quiet for a few minutes and got back "Would you like to be a girl" at that point my feelings where all over the place and didn't know what to say because I was so scared. for some reason I just froze and couldn't reply. After 15 minutes of messages she switched subject (I guess she figured it out at that point). And we talked about other things.
The next day she asked me to just confirm it, so I did. She immediatly asked me "Why didn't you tell me earlier, How long have you been feeling this". we talked about it but nothing about how to proceed or anything. The next day I received a message from her "I made a appointment with the doctor so you can get a letter of recommendation, I'll join you but only if you want" (Where I live you need a letter of recommendation so the insurance covers the entire process) I was surprised because she did this for me without me knowing.
I have had 2 meetings with the doctor and she gave me the letter of recommendation, My mother send messages on a daily basis asking how I'm feeling and I'm waiting now to be called by the medical center for my first appointment. So the first step has been a success but that's just one family member
