Dear "I AM": (yes you are)
At some point I found myself getting lost in the mind games, and even today I still can't answer who am I. For who I am is what I create in others (or they do for themselves) with respect to who I am, for I am no one without the world about me. Without a doubt you are and the only question is what.
It's sort of like picking a flavor of ice cream, strawberry or ?? (you know what you want), and also who you are to the extent that can be known at this time. Choose it and believe it even in the face of no agreement if necessary and very quickly the world will make itself around what you've chosen to be. If you want to tweak it or change it wholesale it's OK to do so; it's your life.
I am not being flippant here; truly, choose who you want and are called to be, and do what that person does. That's confronting (yep, it was for me) because it strips away all the story and leaves one decidedly in charge of their life (My therapist was wonderful at me owning that and it took nearly nine months of intensive work.). I get circumstances may not be comfortable when we do that, but eventually (and most here will say prolonged waiting wasn't/isn't helpful) it comes to that.
It's about who you really be and the moment you seize that concept and act upon it is the day when life as it should be begins in full throated song. Of course, therapy, support groups, good medical advice/treatment, healthy living are necessary supports along the way . . . your primary role is to be who you are and embrace that with all your love and joy. There'll be bumps in the road but when aren't there?
Sent to you with all my joy and love for you to be you,
Rachel
