First Therapy Session~

[Toddin3D]

Hey guys.

As the title says, I went to my first therapy session yesterday. I'm really happy with the results.

My therapist was really nice and understanding of my situation. She had a lot of experience workin with transgender people and even works at one of the Kaiser transgender clinics in the Bay Area.

So she knew a lot about the guidelines and I'm just super happy that RLE is no longer a thing in my state. I don't even have to wait to get HRT or TS. She can send a recommendation right now if I wanted her to.

But even with all the goods news though, I definitely don't want to be rushing into things just yet. It still has to sink in. I feel like I'm just in a dream or this is just too good to be true since not a lot of people get these kinds of things that easily. I almost feel guilty but I'm mostly wondering if this is all real or not. Or maybe that's my depression talking, I don't know.

I know I'm definitely going to start treatment in mid-2016 once I drop the weight. I'm a prediabetic and I really need to take care of that first. Im also going to try and come out in public when I start classes next year. Even though RLE is not required,  I still want to ease myself into the whole process. I feel like if I start now, I'd be jumping in the deep end without testing out the waters first. Or maybe the "you're not trans enough" bull->-bleeped-<- is eating away at me again and I feel like I need to test out the waters to...ugh. I don't even know.

I forgot where I was going with this, but I definitely got some things off my chest so far.

[Mariah]

Yay, Congrats. It feels so good to get started. Hugs
Mariah

[jenifer356]

congratulations Toddin3D

before I was diagnosed with GD I was pretty much in a constant state of semi-depression and without realizing it I was slowly eating myself to death - nearly hit 300 lbs with blood pressure through the roof even with medication - getting the diagnosis and starting HRT was THE BEST THING that could happen to me - within days of having estradiol my mental attitude totally changed and my lifestyle along with it - 20 months later I've lost 90 lbs and almost off the blood pressure meds - look forward to your roller coaster ride and enjoy it

be well
jenifer

[Orchid]

(-: That's awesome!

I -REALLY- respect that you're taking your time with this. You're getting healthier, stronger, leaving yourself with the best possible building material for hormones to shape.

Enjoy the months between! I relished in mine... a little too much... but anyway~

[Toddin3D]

@Mariah, Thanks, I needed that hug. It may be virtual but it means a lot.

Jen, I have considered the possibility that HRT would help with my depression, but there's also the possibility that it could worsen it. If that happens to me, I want it to be when I'm thinner and healthier. When I want to start T, I want to be 100% confident in myself before I make the leap of faith. It may take months for me to build that confidence, but I can wait till then.

@Orchid, I'll definitely make sure to relish these months, especially because of the holidays, haha.