Well, time to some updates.
From day 7 to day 12 I was trying to keep the most time possible in bed, resting. The catether is uncomfy sometimes but it's bareable.
Day 8 - First dilation
Well, the annoying part of all of this process, I think. Nurses came on the morning and show me how to dilate. I started with no. 0 and was 30 min with it. I can think that the first time dilating is extremely annoying, and also the nurse reaching the full depth (6 inches) was even a bit painful. The 30 min wasn't a problem, I had the laptop and watched an anime chapter. Moving when you're dilating (specially first times) seems like a problem, so ensure you have everything you need near you, and in a comfy way to reach it (laptop was near but difficult to use it with one hand).
After that, the next days I learnt how to dilate by myself. It's a bit painful to reach full depth but I think I will end getting used to it.
Day 12 - Urine bag out
That day, only one nurse came to remove the catether and urine bag. She said me to relax and not to tense muscles (they said this many times actually). It was like a burn sensation when the catether were being removing. Some itching remained like an hour or so. After that, nurse went out and I WAS FREEEEEEEEEEE.
The funny part of this day was when I tried to pee. I spent like 15 minutes wondering how to do, because the nurse only said to me to "relax and drink water". It took me some time to learn how to open the pipes
But it seems that you eventually find the way to do it. Now with all this freedom everything is much better
When catether went out I could focus more in sensation and feeling of the new physiology. It certainly exists some sensation like you're tucking 24/7, it an interesting feeling. Also I try not to touch anything just in case, but everything seems too sensitive and swollen for the moment.
Day 15 - Starting with no.1
Well, after getting some skill dealing with no.0, I had to start with no.1. Since the nurses no longer helps you with dilation (only the first 4 days), it is a new experience that I must manage by myself.
After 40 minutes dilation with no.0, I started with no.1... Damn, so much annoying. Painful at the beginning and in the end (nothing special, maybe 3/10), but well it is possible to do it without an herculean effort. Reaching full depth seems impossible with this dilator (It get stuck at 5 1/2 inches), which nurses says it's normal the first times.
Besides that, starting to walk around the hotel was very nice after catether went out, helps a lot. But I'm becoming bored only walking inside the hotel and chatting with other girls (oh and I finally met TessB btw). I hope that after the Chett's last visit I could walk around the malls because I need some fresh air.
Emotionally, I have passed a phase of such a strong emotional charge the first days, maybe overwhelmed with all these new things, some little problems that become enormous... As days go by, this sensation has been diluting and replaced by just boredom and tiredness (I'm sleepeing a lot). I'm not as social as other girls of the hotel so chatting is not always an option for me to deal with boredom. At least I have my videogames
Sorry if I'm not giving a detailed post about feeling and sensation but at the moment I can't explain much more than this. Maybe the next time!
