It has never really occurred to me that I am kind of "unattractive" to the average gay guy, sure I may have an attractive face, but it typically stops there. It's never an "oh my gawd" effect. It's not a desiring, or lustful eyes.... I attract bisexuals strongly for the most part, and straight guys are usually fond of me (my personality). I am even basing my looks, a gay guy told me I had feminine eyes, and a cisgender woman once told me I had girly eyes (more than once). I think people see a girl in me, and it changes how they react to me. Like right now, I think I have the effect on this guy, and he wants to help me on even buying a car. I don't ask for his help though, and he is even willing to drive me to work this past week until I get a car (but he has a girlfriend, I don't find him attractive, and we talk about girls like normal guys... I kind of go along with it).
In the summer of my most experimental days, when I dress slightly feminine, I see lust in men eyes (and not from gay guys). It's a whole 90 degrees difference. Also, I don't think it's coincidental, I think something biologically gave me feminine features. And I don't act feminine.
I made a craigslist post, "t4m", in the romance section, and I had 10x amount of replies that I normally do for a gay romance add. I usually get none in fact. I been searching for love for so long, and it seems love is far more easier for transwomen than it is for gay men (or maybe it's just my luck?)...
It kind of makes no sense, since that was my greatest fear that transwomen can't find love, when it's the opposite all along.
Can anyone relate with me on this???
