So I was thinking back on the sensations that this month of HRT has brought about. Lots of internal restructuring, though this is brought about primarily through the reduction in T. Ongoing and will likely never be truly completed, have let a few habits go and have begun to note a shift in my approach to a lot of stuff and am certainly externally calmer while dealing with a bit of a torrent on the inside. A bit more fiery when provoked and much more connected with my friends when chilling. Much easier to have tears flow over stuff that would have likely went unnoticed 6 months ago.
Physically, noting a shift in muscles...all measurements have shrunk and my weight has continued to come down. Not quite as fast as when I started into the natural therapies. My endo was right about breast discomfort coming on rather quickly once things started to roll. It feels like things sort of picked up where they left off from 20 years ago, but still notably different. The outside orbits on my breasts have begun to fill in and now rub on the insides of my arms when I move around, especially when driving. Thought it was phantom feeling until I started looking at things closely. Yep, they are changing shape, but are not "bigger" for that. The girls never went away from the 7 months prior. Neither did the butt. It has become a bit bouncier, if anything.
Some times it is hard to tell if things are really happening or if I am just noting things that were already there from before. Regardless, I am definitely happier with myself than in many years. I feel a zest and love for life that had begun to flag some as things sort of droned on for a few decades.
Am out to everyone on earth as well...family, friends, work...no more hiding!
Vampires will get their fill from me today, blood work this afternoon and then my next endo appointment in a few weeks. Provided everything checks out and no anomalies cause concern, I am going to push things to the stops now. FSA!
Love yourself, enjoy your journey and be true! May your day be the best ever!
