Hi I'm Chrissy!
I was born a boy but have been having a lot of thoughts lately of becoming a female....
I have been crossdressing for as long as I can remember, mainly with pantyhose as a child and then into fully dressing up for the past five years (I'm now 36). I have always kept it a closely guarded secret and it has weighed heavily on my mind, and on my soul. If I am truly honest with myself (which is something I haven't been very good at until recently) then I have no doubt that it played a big part in my relationships failing. I come across as quite unemotional, but can be grumpy during serious conversations (mainly ones regarding emotions as they make me feel quite uncomfortable) . I hope to find my positive energy and grow that because I know it lurks within!
I have always acted outwardly quite macho and aside from the crossdressing I've never opened my mind and explored my female side, but this is something I fully intend to do and had my first session with a gender specialist psych this week. I can't wait for my next in a weeks time...
Anyways, the weight of all these secrets and lies have broken the dam and I recently spilled to my partner. She has been really quite supportive, but there has been some tough times along with more questions than I have answers for right now, but we're working thru this together. It feels so great to have these lies and secrets off my mind even though I have been betraying my partner. Overall it was so the right thing to fess up to.
Although I have concerns about one day coming out (at minimum as a crossdresser) those fears lessen as I grow stronger to discover the real me (in whatever form that may be!) and that need to find myself drowns out the worries. This is a path I must go down and although a bit scary it's the most excited and alive I've felt in so long!
I am very grateful for this site and to you all for playing a part in helping me on my newly discovered journey. I feel I take strength from your words of wisdom and in time I hope to help others in some small way as I grow into this new phase of my life finding out who Chrissy is
