only experience bottom dysphoria

[degto]

Im a bio female. It started when I was around 3 and hasnt really gotten any better, I'm 18 now and dont consider myself trans. My mind is telling me that there should be something there, it feels like a phantom limb, like there's a weight there then I look down and don't see anything. It gives me anxiety and its always worse during that time of the month. I bought a packer and it feels right but its still not the real thing. I dont know what to do, I dont wanna go on T but I'd like to have phalloplasty done and I dont think I can do it without T. I like the rest of my body and my feminine face. What does that make me? Non binary maybe? I have no clue. Please help, should I see a gender therapist?

[Peep]

You probably should see a gender therapist, they might be able to help you find a balance and figure out where you sit on the spectrum.

As for the phallo, from what I've read it might be physically possible to have one with no T, but it could be difficult to find a surgeon who will do it.

[Dena]

Welcome to Susan's Place. Only you can tell us where you fit in the transgender spectrum but it sounds like you would be comfortable with a mix of both genders. You should talk with the other FTMs on this site because some don't feel comfortable with T and there is discussion about surgeries as to what they can and can't deliver. Sadly the surgery for FTM is not as good as it is for MTF. The other side of the coin is that T is far more effective than E. The non binary section may also be of interest if for no other reason than to see if you fit in. Let me know if there is anything I can help you with.

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