So... I don't really know where to start. I discovered myself over two years ago, and told my Mom a couple months later. She told my dad this summer, and he seems to be in denial of the entire subject.
I don't care much; I haven't ever been particularly close to him as, until three years ago, he was always off on a job, and I've been growing more distant from him as he exhibits various behaviors which only further make me want to be like him.
Mom, on the other hand, has said she's supportive since I came out to her. However, she's always seemed a bit... reluctant about the subject of my gender identity. At first, she told me she was worried it might be a phase, but that she wanted me to experiment. Even now, though, she still thinks it's a phase. She doesn't seem to mind the idea of me dressing in public, but she gets really withdrawn whenever I talk about hormones or surgeries. Today, she told me that she had to learn how to accept herself as she was, and, as far as I can tell, that I should do the same.
I just don't know. I can see the logic of her argument, but at the same time I can't stand the thought of going through life male, even if I were to dress feminine. I know we can't afford much, but my insurance covers HRT, which is practically all I need at this point. We live in a relatively accepting community, I'm pretty sure - in the three and a half years that we've lived here, I've heard two LGBT-phobic conversations. Two. LGBT-accepting or at least -aware conversations, on the other hand, I hear at least once a week, sometimes even at home. It's just so frustrating! I don't get it! This is not a phase!!!
