A lot of Help.

[Snowsong]

Before I ask my question a quick backstory. I am in my early 30's. I have felt I was transgender since I was around 9 (Even though back then I didn't know what was going on till about 15). I have kept it in all this time and only recently told a family member after starting therapy ( I could not take it anymore). This has been on my mind everyday. Sometimes I would be walking down the street and see a women I would think to myself why could I not have just been born a women and would have to keep myself from crying.

It all seems pretty clear from my point of view that I am transgender and a lot more supports that I didn't put in the quick backstory. But here is my problem... I can't really talk about or listen to videos of others talking about these issues without getting somewhat aroused. This could be slight. There is nothing sexual or am I thinking about anything sexual. It just happens. I would feel weird bring this up to my therapist especially now, when I see my therapist next I have good news that after 20 something years I finally told my family how I feel. Now that my family has accepted me I want to transition but going forward this scares me. It makes me question everything. Any help would be appreciated.

[autumn08]

Hi Snowsong,


My theory is that when you talk about or listen to videos of others talking about these issues, you become aroused because you are imagining being transitioned. I don't think this is anything to feel weird about, because imagining the things you would have, and thus how they could be used, seems to me a fundamental part of arousal.