I'm and 18 years old male in college and I think I may be transsexual. When I was a little kid I remember sneaking into my mom's room and trying on her clothes and shoes. I also would spend hours trying on my father's girlfriends daughters clothes and this happened on multiple occasions. Even when it came to my friends as a child I would play with other girls in my neighborhood and we would play pretend and it would fell invigorating. When I reached middle school I started to watch mtf videos and became amazed at the changes that trans women have gone through. I then started to dream about what it would be like t be a girl and still continue to this very day. I am not super confident around other girls nowadays but I am extremely confident when I talk to other males. When i am around my nieces and nephews i tend to be with my nieces more because it almost gives me a feeling of beings a girl. I don't know if this is because I don't want to act feminine around other girls and be looked at weird or if I am just naturally attracted to males like women are. Also I often find myself looking at other girls and think to myself, I wish I could look like them. I find the urge to want to dress like a girl when this happens like wearing dresses, skirts, nike shirts or even leggings, because women's clothing it much more appealing to me and turns me on and makes me think of what I would look like if I were a girl. I also want to constantly be able to paint my nails and apply makeup as it just makes women look absolutely stunning and I want the same for myself. As well as when I see all the girls on my campus I get jealous of them that they get to look the way they do and dress in such beautiful clothes. Especially girls in sororities because I want to join one and become a "sister". I also have started to look at girls less in the way of would I want to date them or if they're attractive and instead look at them in envy as they get to live they're lives the way I think I should be living.
I don't know what to do, if anyone could help me by giving me advice and what they think of my situation that would be seriously helpful.
P.S.
My username is what I want my female name to be if I transition. Arianna Nicole
