I was enjoying being on Facebook because it was proving to be a good place to meet with and share stuff with other folk on the transgender spectrum. Only all these lonely cis men who are close to my own age keep sending me messages telling me I'm pretty and similar exaggerations and half-truths; Wanting to know if I'm single and could they be my friend and in time perhaps something more.......
I hate instant messaging and on-line chat because when you have narcolepsy like me where I'm often walking a fine line between dropping into REM sleep and actually being in the real world (whatever that is) doing things in real time sucks. With e.mail, forum posts and the like it doesn't matter if I nip out for 15 minutes because I'll just pick up from where I left off. AND all these guys want to real time chat even when I tell them that I don't do that very well due to having narcolepsy.
Well I don't want it
Looking at the profile pictures of those would be suitors is like looking into a horrifying window into an alternative future where I'd stuck with living the big fat lie that I was male. The thing is I'm happy with my own company and I don't want a companion of any kind, type or variety. If you live with chronic joint and muscle pain like I do the thought of anybody touching, groping or hugging me is scary. Even if I didn't have chronic illness I'm non-binary asexual so I still wouldn't want an intimate relationship. I was married for 12 years and that was enough aversion therapy for anybody asexual to suffer in one life time.
They want to know all about me so I think I'll tell them that I don't believe in washing because it removes natural skin oils and secretions that the skin needs for good health........
