I'm addicted to crying

[RachelsMantra]

Pre-HRT I never cried that much. I still don't cry that much compared to other girls. But I love crying. It feels so good. It's like this massive validation for me that the hormones are working. I love the feeling of release. Tonight I have been watching "No cry challenge" playlists on youtube and crying my eyes out. I feel kinda weird getting a rush from watching sad things but like I said it makes me feel like a woman, like the estrogen is really taking over my brain.

Am I alone?

[BeverlyAnn]

No, I was on a very low dose estrogen for many years and had to watch it at work to make sure something didn't touch off tears.  However now, I'm on a T blocker for a medical reason and the last few weeks I'll start crying at a happy ending on a TV show or for no reason at all.  I dread the upcoming Celtic Woman Christmas concert with the symphony orchestra.  If they sing Danny Boy which they always do, I will be blubbering mess.

[Kellam]

I've always been prone to a good cry, it is just so much easier now. My big moment with it was when I was having a difficulty with my brother. He lives elsewhere and has turned his back on me. I was staying with my Mom when I got his hurtful letter. I tried to deal with it the way I had been shown by my father. Walk it off, swallow the pain. But I just couldn't do it anymore. My Mom came and asked me what was up and everything just flowed out. I blubbed for an hour, talking it all out between sobs and big hugs. Me and my Mom just sat on a bed. It brought us so much closer together and helped me deal with my brother being a jerk. I felt so much more a woman! Now I don't hesitate. The little weeps are just as good too. It is so lovely to be able to show my emotions.

[Cindy]

I always tell girls in their first counselling session to buy shares in kleenex, they will pay for her GCS!

Yep, I love a good cry!

And sometimes I do watch a weepy movie to enjoy blubbering, go figure!

[stephaniec]

It's a lot more natural than Visine .

[Ms Grace]

It's odd, when I tried to transition the first time I cried at the drop of a hat. Everything and anything would set me off. This time, not really. What I've noticed is it is easier to cry at things that are upsetting, and that the tears feel very different - like they're larger and hot. Weird.

[LizK]

When I began this journey someone told me to get shares in Kleenex (thanks Cindy)and I thought at the time.

I am already prone to bursts of crying, however will I be, when I add the effects of Oestrogen on top of my normal weepy....that could get really ugly

[Lady Smith]

Being free to cry once I started transition and was on HRT was such a relief.  It was wonderful, it was like washing all the crap out of your soul.  After growing up with, 'Big boys don't cry,' thrown at me at the smallest sniffle it was freedom itself to have a good sob.  Almost a religious experience 

[FluffyPunk]

I rarely cried bifor hrt, methinks I used them up in na mil. But WOW!!! Crying to call mum commercials an such silly things sometimes. Also like Ms Grace that it is a lot easier to physically cry at na real things, but also mi tears have changed too. Deffinately much bigger an hotter... Verry strange...

[JoanneB]

Pre HRT I would often cry. Certainly a lot for guy's in general. Not long after HRT I started crying a lot more. Six years latter it hasn't abated.

I look at the whole HRT emotional thing this way. Yes, it may suck at times to get all weepy over almost nothing. Or, to feel delight or joy over some inconsequential thing to which others give you strange looks. I now know it sucks even more NOT to have feelings like these.

[LizK]

..... I now know it sucks even more NOT to have feelings like these.

Its hard to know what you are missing until you experience it for the first time and then think to yourself...why? or why didn't I before now. The things I do for myself to help with the dysphoria have also opened my life up to new experiences and in my case new emotions. I never realised how emotionally blunted I am at times and maybe it is not until we start to tear downs the emotional walls we have put up around out "true selves" to protect us, that we find that not only is the bad stuff being kept out but also preventing much of the good stuff getting in as well. Such as warmth and love

Crying seems to help break my walls down, I used to be very embarrassed growing up and into adult life about my ability to "tear up" at the drop of a hat. As I got older I did get very good at shutting down the tears and emotion before I could get into a full blown sob or anything close...the most that would happen is I may get a watery eye and for most of my adult years that is all I ever did. Didn't exactly work that well for me either.

Sarah T