Thinking about who I'll be

[ChelseaAnn]

Okay, I'm not sure if anyone else has had this problem. I tried talking to my trans friend, and she was a little help, but I still am constantly having this go through my head.
I'll be starting hormones next year, likely around October. The thought that constantly goes through my head is, who is Chelsea going to be? Will I be a different person? Does my personality fit in a female body? They're weird thoughts, like I'm seeing Chelsea as a different person than myself, and I'm wondering.... IDK. Wondering if I'll fit in my new body I guess. I don't really care what I'll look like as long as I grow my hair out and get breasts, but it's like I want to talk to my future self and see if she's still the same person I am, just in a female body.
The only thing I can say is that when I go out as Chelsea, I feel more confident in myself, but that's about the only change I notice. Can anyone help me out with this?

[Girl Beyond Doubt]

I am one year post SRS, have been on HRT for two years.
The changes keep surprising me.
My impression is that <his name> and <her name> share this body, but she is at the wheel now big time, making the rules.
His personality is sad, lonely, downcast, resigned, cynical, determined, no-nonsense badass. Don't mess with him.
Her personality is optimistic, friendly, sociable, outgoing, tendrils and flowers. It appeared with HRT, unasked for, but greeted with tears of unspeakable happiness.

You WILL BE SURPRISED. Nothing and nobody can prepare you.