Last night I looked into the mirror, what did I see?

[Monica Jean]

I spend too much time on FB and not enough a support forums.  Here's what transpired Thanksgiving evening and I think many other gals can relate to this....


Last night I looked into the mirror, what did I see?

Tired from a long day I headed to the bathroom to clean off my make up and retire my wig for the night. Suddenly, I noticed her in the mirror. I noticed her before but not like this. She was cuter than I ever gave her credit for in the past. Her eye makeup was indeed pretty...the kind that has me gawking after other gal's makeup and I ask "How do you your eye makeup so well?!" She had it going on. She smiled back at me.

But the glance I gave here wasn't for a moment...it turned into several minutes of adoring her eyes. Each moment that I continued to stare into her eyes...opened up new depths of understanding of who she is now...and new love grew for this woman in the mirror...even if she's overweight, tired from this very busy year, unsure of herself several times daily...but each moment glaring into her beautiful eyes adoring her makeup brought tears...tears of joy spawned by the realization of self acceptance, tears from no longer feeling the past encroach her daily emotions...tears from realizing God never makes mistakes and loves her dearly (The heck with the naysayers and their false doctrines of shame and discord!)...tears from the feeling of freedom to finally be...freedom to accept oneself fully and openly, tears realizing the abysmal shame of the past is all gone. ALL GONE!

I couldn't stop smiling at her! She's happy, for the first time in her life, she's happy!!! She is beautiful inside and out, even with her myriad of flaws and weaknesses, she now has life and vigor.

She can now rest well this evening knowing that she's loved by me.

Yours truly,
Yourself

[Stephanie Sammantha]

I spend too much time on FB and not enough a support forums.  Here's what transpired Thanksgiving evening and I think many other gals can relate to this....


Last night I looked into the mirror, what did I see?

Tired from a long day I headed to the bathroom to clean off my make up and retire my wig for the night. Suddenly, I noticed her in the mirror. I noticed her before but not like this. She was cuter than I ever gave her credit for in the past. Her eye makeup was indeed pretty...the kind that has me gawking after other gal's makeup and I ask "How do you your eye makeup so well?!" She had it going on. She smiled back at me.

But the glance I gave here wasn't for a moment...it turned into several minutes of adoring her eyes. Each moment that I continued to stare into her eyes...opened up new depths of understanding of who she is now...and new love grew for this woman in the mirror...even if she's overweight, tired from this very busy year, unsure of herself several times daily...but each moment glaring into her beautiful eyes adoring her makeup brought tears...tears of joy spawned by the realization of self acceptance, tears from no longer feeling the past encroach her daily emotions...tears from realizing God never makes mistakes and loves her dearly (The heck with the naysayers and their false doctrines of shame and discord!)...tears from the feeling of freedom to finally be...freedom to accept oneself fully and openly, tears realizing the abysmal shame of the past is all gone. ALL GONE!

I couldn't stop smiling at her! She's happy, for the first time in her life, she's happy!!! She is beautiful inside and out, even with her myriad of flaws and weaknesses, she now has life and vigor.

She can now rest well this evening knowing that she's loved by me.

Yours truly,
Yourself

I'm happy for you.

Risking getting myself in trouble saying, overweight is hot to me.
The super lesbian in me made me say that. I'm sorry if that was wrong to say.

[autumn08]

Wow! That was beautiful. Congratulations!!! 

[♥︎ SarahD ♥︎]

Awwws, hunni that's sooo adorable!   Congratulations! <3

Also FYI - if your forum avatar is anything to go by, you are cute as a button hun ^_^  you look just like my (cis-female) friend Cherilyn!  I mean, like... its actually rather uncanny how similar you look lol! <3

[Kellam]

That was so beautiful and so well put! I am happy as heck for you that you had that moment. Such an unbelievable joy isn't it?

[Monica Jean]

Thank you all.  It was from the heart and I wanted to share this revelation.  It was surely a great day!

[Monica Jean]

Also FYI - if your forum avatar is anything to go by, you are cute as a button hun ^_^  you look just like my (cis-female) friend Cherilyn!  I mean, like... its actually rather uncanny how similar you look lol! <3

I look like your friend?  I'd love to see a pic! I didn't know I had a twin sister out there

And thank you for the compliment.  Made me blush

[Qrachel]

What a precious moment when it occurs . . . there will probably be others.

Rachel

[barbie]

You are happy with yourself, then you can also be happy with others, too!

barbie~~

[Jamie_06]

I had a similar experience back in college. I had crossdressed rather badly for an LGBT Club event, and had returned to my apartment where I looked at myself in the full-length mirror...

...and found that instead of looking at an awkward guy trying to look female, I was actually looking at this cute, short-haired androgynous girl. She had the prettiest eyes and a warm yet mischievous smile, and it was almost like she was trying to reach out to me.

I kind of just stared for a while, wondering who she was and what it meant. I had no idea what to make of her then, but I think that now I'm finally understanding what it all meant.

Maybe I need to let this girl out more often and get to know her a little better .

[cheryl reeves]

I catch myself doing the same. Me and Cheryl know each other real well,sorta like a brother/sister relationship since we share the same body. This is why gcs is off the table for I couldn't kill either one off. I do have to admit cheryl turns me on at times.