So I made a post the other day, and I was so happy! Today was day two of trying new things and well, to my surprise, I didn't get any looks today whatsoever. I mean, don't get me wrong, come next week when I try eyeliner, I know I'll get a few, especially from my family at home, but that's not what's bugging me. I know that the first day no one expected me to something like due to the image I portray at school. Besides having my nails done up, no one said a thing. This made me think. Is it because they don't care or do they just not say anything while I'm around? Or better yet, how about someone calling me out for doing something like this... What's to stop them? I mean, I'm expecting negative feedback, it's all over the place. Weather people know I'm transgendered or not won't stop them from finding a way to make me feel bad. I guess I'm just scared of being made fun of with the word transgender. I'm not a fan of the word anymore. Don't get me wrong, I'm proud of being trans, but with todays society, anything associated with it is being shown as negative. I hate how the definitions have changed and how it really hurts us. Even for those who are just figuring things out and then hear this talk of how it's "wrong". It isn't, and no one can change us to say otherwise. After feeling like this, I always think of everyone here and how much it would pain me to see anyone here hurt. I've only been here for a short time and believe me, time very well spent. Then I get cheered up because there's so many people who have reached their goals and are helping others here. Nothing will ever tear us all down, we're all family and weather someone's bringing you down or not, I know I'm not the only one that will be waiting here to help cheer you up
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