Hello friends.
It's roughly an hour until the end of Christmas day by me. I guess it went better than my thoughts were expecting it to be. I'm glad its still something that I can enjoy with my family. Who knows in the next few years how that will pan out, but no sense in getting all worked up about that. For now, my family likely thinks that I've abandoned the idea, but just had to put it back on hold for a bit. Such is life I guess. I'll get to start my journey eventually.
My mind is always constantly running crazy with the trans thoughts and seeing it more and more in the world just often makes me wonder. I know for many of you who are either in full, partial or nowhere transition also have to deal with this for this time of the year. It really pains me to think that people would be abandoned in these great times of family togetherness. Family is what November and December are basically all about. thanksgiving, Christmas, Hanukkah, or whatever other holidays exist. Being there with people you love, but suddenly thrown being trans into the mix, and now none will support you. People say stupid things like why can't you just be gay. How could they accept one form of us, but not the other. It's ridiculous. A family should love all members of the family, regardless of what they look like, act, or express themselves.
For those of you without anything or anyone for this time frame. I will keep you in my thoughts always. You are all stronger than I am. I can hardly keep myself together, let alone having to deal with all of this too. I probably couldn't do it. You are all so brave and strong. Keep up the desire to live and you'll find the right path soon. I know it. I wish for everyone to have a happy christmas, happy holiday, and happy family. Someday we'll get there and this won't be a problem anymore. I promise.
Love you All. Sammi
