It could be the anti depressants or it could be your outlook on life now you are seeking treatment. Before I transition, it was constantly depression for may years and I didn't see much beyond what was inside my head. After my surgery, I know I have had bad days but they don't linger and life just seems so much better. Anybody that tells you that a proper treatment doesn't cure your ->-bleeped-<- doesn't know what they are talking about.