Hey __________
Hi. As you know my secret, that saves me time. What I need to say however is a bit awkward but I have to say it. I came and told you feeling safe. I thought you would while not understand, you would help remove the trigger here. Well I thought you did. The trigger being the male dress code. I saw you did but when I came up with stuff to wear, you started to make it seem so complicated and it actually made me feel more different and weird, I just said whatever to it inside.
Well what nobody here knows is the other day, the male dress code thing caused my dysphoria to go up REALLY bad. I had to go shopping and I tried to avoid it. My mom came along. Well so the first store I was in, the girls clothes were there. That made me sad. Well so I wanted to avoid any guys clothes but knew I had to deal with it. There was nothing thankfully.
So I went to another store but this time, it got ugly. We went in there and well it got bad. It got so painful that I started to insult the clothes, didn't want to look and than took one of those dumb collared shirts, took a picture and uploaded it to Facebook just to insult. Ya when my dysphoria, Im not always thinking. This all while getting into an argument with her. I wanted to cry but well how do you explain that so I never did. This causing me insane stress, I was just glad to be gone. Well this wasn't the end.
I got back to my house and got out this old suit and tie thing I have in a closet, dressed up in it and took a picture to insult it being guys clothes. This didn't help me however. I had trouble sleeping just like when I had that haircut early a year ago which brought out the same thing, dysphoria. You remember how bad it was? This is just as bad.
It causes me pain just the same way. I don't know why anyone should have to suffer like that when it's way easier to remove the trigger and save them the stress. It doesn't just happen here, I deal with it elsewhere the best I can. If I can alleviate that pain any, I do try. I wouldn't wish this on anyone at all.
I know you cannot understand how I feel and that's okay but I feel like I got played a bit.
I know to you all, Im a guy and that is all you know. That is understandable.
Ive thought about telling ____ and _____ to but I also don't want to hurt anyone. I would hope no one would want me to hurt either.
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I dont know if I should add anything or not. I just hope it would get my point across to the lady at work.
