Well it was hard starting around the afternoon. Im feeling better now but it's an ongoing thing with that dress code. Ive been having to make joke of it all just to feel better but ofcourse Ill have to face my troubles again. I had to go look for some shirts. My mom was along with me. We got in the store and well I started to feel that pain come back as I saw the girls clothes section. I walked back and wanted to avoid it but needed a few shirts. I stopped to look for stuff for my niece but knew Id have to go look. Thankfully there was nothing.
Well this put me in a bitter mood even worse. I went to another store and I had the same problem of depression but this time worse. I actually got kinda hateful not at my mom but infront of her out of my own pain of which wasnt right and caused her to get mad. Her and me are fine now. This is why I hate being in the boys clothes if it's ever about me. I never go there unless I have to. I wanted to cry it hurt so bad but if I cried, well things would get complicated.
I felt like that little kid denied going to my sisters slumber party because everyone thinks Im a boy. It was tough today. I hate hearing men, man, sir and boy being related to me. I wish I had been born with a girls body to match my brain which would fix it all.
