Hello everyone,
I would like to add my voice to posts by you wonderful people. I am married, in my late 50's, transitioning from MtoF. I am on hormones since June 2015. I hope to have FFS this coming June followed shortly thereafter by going full time. I am so lucky to have been accepted by nearly 60 friends, family, and neighbors. I will soon stand in front of about 90 coworkers and tell them my story. That's my factual story.
My personal story goes back as far as I can remember, going to bed each night dreaming of being female. It is a long history of two sides battling causing great anger and withdrawal. I was honest with my wife from the start of dating. It's weird, but she accepted me from the start. I just couldn't accept myself. About a year ago, I realized I could no longer live my life as a pretender. My great wake up moment was that my shame and denial was what was making me miserable. My feminine side was really comfortable and pleasant. I have come a long way. Acceptance is a step by step process for me. Everything I have done though makes me more sure that I must live the rest of my life as a woman. For the first time in my life, I have been consistently, extremely happy. The path ahead is a bit scary, but is it worse than the 50 years of fear I have already dealt with? No, I will no longer give in to fear.
I look forward to interacting with everyone. I wish the best for all on their personal journeys.
Sincerely, Moni
