I have some pretty severe dysphoria. Top, bottom, social, if it's a thing you can be dysphoric about I probably am. Bottom's the worst by far. This all would be okay if I knew it was temporary. If I knew one day I'd have a body just like a cis guy I would be perfectly fine getting through all of this. But that's not gonna happen. At best I can get bottom surgery, which won't be anything close to a real penis.
It's suffocating knowing that there will always be something wrong about my body. I'm mentally ill too, and the dysphoria just makes all that stuff so much worse. I'm having trouble getting through the day because of my dysphoria at this point.
I've been on t for a little, and it's sort of helping, but honestly what gets to me the most is the fact that this will never really be over. How do you cope with that?
