I've been feeling like a terrible person all morning.
My cat is clearly severely diabetic (I assumed it was just him getting old at first, but other signs now show it is diabetes 100%), but I don't have the money to take him to the vet, much less buy insulin for the rest of his life. Or rather, the money I have is earmarked for transition costs and food reserves that needs to last the next two years. (Still haven't sold my complete game collection so don't have that cash either.)
I don't know what to do. He's around 17-18 (a little unclear if I got him pre 9/11 or just post), so he's been with me a long time. He used to be the cat that would sit with my mom all day keeping her company (and when she was getting sicker with the cancer, he would freak out and hate not being allowed to sleep with her because he would try to climb on top of her all night). Honestly, he might be the closest remaining connection I have with my mom.
Logically I feel like I should do nothing and let him just sort of live out the rest of his life as is, he's not in pain or anything (at least not yet), he seems perfectly happy just pees a ton and is really skinny after being super fat his whole life. Emotionally, I want to do everything in my power to help him live a longer (quality) life. I just... I don't know what to do. Certainly I know what I would do if money were no object, but then if money were no object I wouldn't be feeling the way I am to begin with. So the question I'm struggling with ultimately comes down to, do I spend potentially thousands of dollars prolonging his life (again, quality life not like him walking around sick and in pain) and set my transition back possibly years (odds are it will be out of my hair removal funds), or do I just sort of... let things be? And if I do, am I betraying him, and my own morality for doing so?