I am sorry if this message seems poorly written in any way. I am writing this on my cell phone.
Reading plenty horror stories I guess I have been lucky. My surgery been 9 days ago now. No complications and out of the 4 dilitation eh, dildos? I use the third biggest one. The nurses advised me to use this and wait going bigger till I meet the doctor for a check up in 2 weeks. Also mentioning they usually do not expect anyone to get to the biggest within 3 weeks.
Call me stubborn. Been dilitating for a week now. I never felt pain. Never seen blood. Just struggle a little to get it in. So I tried the bigger one.. got it in for about half... then stopped. It didn't hurt in any way but it simply would 't go deeper. Do I have to use the smaller one longer to stretch it more? Or.. what am I doing wrong?
Also, after dilitation I always do the douche thing. The spraying/cleaning yourself from inside. Do you will have to do this after dilitation the rest of your life? Or how do girls do it if their bf orgasms inside them, douche right after? Seems a bit like a mood-killer, why I am asking

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Forgot my third question (my nickname already makes no sense). I will add it later

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